My Testament

Your voice raised in anger, you feel like a man. But your actions are childish; you're too bitter to understand. You hurl obscenities like weapons; but I do not cower. I refuse to fall prey to your false sense of power...

Unleashed in a fury, you spew forth with rage. A rage that you claim you held in for too long. All the while, I believed we were on the same page. But thanks to your words, my instincts were wrong.

I was wrong to believe that you'd never hurt me. Was I wrong to accept you as my closest friend? My eyes have been opened, the veil has been lifted. And now from a distance, a new day begins...

With too little sleep, my eyes are weary. But my heart beats stronger because of my faith... You continue to struggle in your quest for survival. I'm happier now because I KNOW my place!

I know I'm not perfect, I DO make mistakes. I know that in love, there are triumphs AND trials. YOU showed your true colors at the first sign of trouble. Don't blame ME if the world handles you like a child...

In a world full of users, I was your shelter. I was someone who you KNEW you could trust. I withheld MY power, so I wouldn't hurt you. You took me for granted; now you've destroyed us.
This is YOUR doing. The lies, the abuse. The pain, the rejection, the resentment, the excuse. Your wounds are self-inflicted. Your oppression was something YOU scripted. Oh yes, mister! YOU chose to hide your true feelings away, because YOU didn't think I could handle the weight -- the weight of the world on your shoulders. You took it out on me. Stop blaming me for YOU not being happy! You better stop, look and listen before you make a huge mistake. While you're pushing ME down, YOU'RE the one who's gonna break. Don't say I didn't warn you, don't say I didn't give my all. You stepped on MY back to rise, and you're gonna need me when you FALL...

...and you WILL fall, thank you Jesus! And when you fall down, I'll be right there. Not because I wanna say I told you so... But because like a TRUE friend -- because like a REAL friend -- because like the ONLY TRUE FRIEND YOU HAVE IN THIS WORLD, I'm showing you that I STILL CARE.


Truly Yours,

Aaron-Carl