Eve of 33

Goodbye 32…  This year, what did I do?

This past year of my life has been nothing short of eventful…  I’ve grown so much, in so many ways.  I released DETREVOLUTION, which is probably the best collection of work I’ve ever finished.  Thank God my mother got to hear it, and love it, before she died.  

I’ve traveled to different countries, got to make new friends.  I’ve reached people all over the world with my music – which makes me feel SO GOOD!  I’ve discovered that there IS life after pain…  There IS life after heartache.  I’ve discovered my inner beauty.  I’ve learned to accept the things I truly can’t change.  

I’ve learned to stand up for myself.  I’ve learned not to let society keep me down.  I’ve learned that my sexuality is NOT a curse, but a blessing – and even so, it is only one of MANY definitions of me.  

I took some time and read my blog from its beginning – which was roughly this time last year.  I SEE how much I’ve grown.  I SEE all the pain that I’ve gone through.  I’ve SEEN the disappointments, the questions, the JOYS, the laughter…  I even saw the promise I made to myself about losing 100 pounds…  Well, that didn’t happen.  HOWEVER…  I’ve discovered that I don’t have to be lazy.  (I admit, I was…)  I understand that it’s not EASY to become “back to my old skinny self…”  This shit’s gonna take WORK…  and PERSISTANCE…  And I can’t just stop after 1 week of a good diet – I drove myself crazy every time I denied myself some food…  No carbs?  Forget it.  NO MEAT?  OH NO, honey…  forget about it.

Although I will say that I’ve discovered that when I eat HEALTHIER foods, like salads, etc…  It’s not so bad.  I’ve eaten enough junk in my lifetime.  I can start doing my body good.

33 is coming fast – only HOURS away…  and I’m not gonna get that “midnight phone call” from Mommy, wishing me a happy birthday – but I got through Christmas, New Year’s, MOTHER’S day (thank you Jesus) – I’m praying for the strength to get through this as well…

With everything being said, I’m ending this blog tonight with this:  To those of you who take time to actually read this blog…  To those of you who have left comments or sent me e-mails, or phone calls…  I appreciate you.  I THANK you.  Thank you for sharing your time with me.  

Let us continue to inspire each other this year.

I respect, appreciate, cherish, and am thankful for you all…

Love
AC