Today I think I lost a friend… You know, the one friend whom I asked the “god-awful question…” Today, I received a message in my MySpace account from him. “I wish you well… Good luck to you… Peace.” If that’s not the coldest goodbye I’ve ever heard! Immediately, I wrote him back. “You sound like you’re saying goodbye… Don’t you DARE say goodbye…” Then I noticed on HIS MySpace account, that all references to Aaron-Carl are gone. He had a nice little message that wished me a Happy Birthday. Gone.
You know, that makes me wonder… Was today just a bad day for him? I didn’t say anything offensive – except the term of endearment, “Hetero Pussy.” Perhaps he got offended? I fail to see the logic. It’s just like someone calling me a “Drama Queen” or something like that. Friends can joke with each other about that. Maybe he wasn’t a friend, after all… Well, if it makes his ego feel better, I’ll even apologize about it.
It’s just another painful reminder that I’m part of a very rare breed. No, I’m not talking about “gay.” But I do feel that my being gay has something to do with it. Lord knows I’ve had to fight for EVERYTHING that I’ve ever had in this world. In fact, I’m still fighting just to SURVIVE in this world. My blog comes from my heart, and if I don’t feel like censoring what the fuck I say, SO BE IT. Love me for ME, faults and all.